nervous
Tomorrow marks exactly one month until my first competition. I am so nervous. One day my abs are popping, the next they aren’t. My thoughts consist of “Will i be ready? will the fat come off? will my abs look good? will my legs look good?”
I went to my posing practice today. Umm, all of the girls look fucking great. There were 2 new girls today, and they are both doing figure, so i won’t be competing against them. One of them is totally show ready, the other’s abs are perfect, but her legs need to lean out a bit.There is also my friend Lisa(she looks show ready right now) and then another girl who is much older who looks like she could take the masters stage with ease. We watched some videos of figure/fitness america today and then worked on posing and turns. It is scary. Really, really scary.
I wanted to give up today. Not gonna lie. I sat at home, was bumming all day(not just about that, but about a few other things) The bumming stemmed from me being TIRED. i know i over did it yesterday, and i continuued working out hard this morning. I’m so close though, and I read Rae’s Blog and it inspired me to not even THINK about giving up. If i get last place, who cares. I know I am in the best shape of my life and it will only get better from here on out. I love the way I eat, and although it’s hard sometimes, in the end, I LIKE IT. I don’t mind eating egg whites and chicken all the time. I have grown to love veggies(honestly even more than fruit now!) and i can honestly say i don’t worry about ever turning back to the “dark side” I don’t like the way I feel when I eat like that and in moderation, fine, but i don’t even desire that anymore. (Except a little ice cream here and there…in a month i will actually eat it instead of staring at it in the grocery store!)
Long store short: I NEED A VACATION. After this competition…i will take one to visit my brother in california. He is a health nut like me and loves fresh fruit and vegetables, and exercise. He tends to over do it just like me, but in different ways. I.e. mountain biking for 8 hours straight. Yeah, he’s more nuts than me!
Anyways, this was a lot of rambling, but basically…i am in this to the end, i love my new lifestyle, and shit…I’M TAKING THE STAGE BABY!
I dream of hard rock core abs. I know what you mean. It is soo hard not to give up sometimes. Hang in there, I am pulling for you.
Changing your diet I like to view as more of a lifestyle change, than a yo yo. I like your outlook on it. I know I can't stand the taste of soda anymore.
Hiya!! I left a message in reply on my blog, but just in case you don't read it. I'll post it here!!
One of the reasons I posted it was because it hit home for me so I know it would inspire a lot of other competitors in the lead-in to the last month of comp prep. Just remember that there was a calling for you to begin this journey. There was a reason you started it and why you have already put in a lot of hard work, blood, sweat and tears toward it. You just need to reconnect with the desire that began the journey in the first place xxx
Good luck with the upcoming competition, Lizzy! And yes, I hope you enjoy a vacation afterward 🙂 You deserve it.
hey girlie! i think everyone who has competed has felt the way you do!!i feel and felt the same way last satarday!!!!everyone questions if they will be ready in time-all i can say is that if you train hard,eat right and DO YOUR BEST,then you have already waled away a winner!!! just getting the guts to step foot om stage is already a victory in and of itself!!!i totally agree with raeC about reconnecting on why you started the journey to begin with….but i think yo uwill do better than you expect-just try to have fun with it all chica! OH, agreat trick for abs to come out and stay out on show day (only if you REALLY need it!) you can put preperation h over your belly and hips and cellephane wrap yourself on friday night and sleep with it on-come saterday morning,the subcutaneous water will be gone and abs will be out! i did this at my last show bc my abs kept playing peekaboo with me the whole friggin week before the show thanks to being NERVOUS! lol!
anyways,hope that tidbit helps! AND stay positive,stay focused and just do this!!!!!!
MC
You are going to do so good, I can't wait! I wish I could be in the audience to cheer you on!
That vacation sounds great and I TOTALLY agree, you, of all people, need a vacation! 🙂
Just getting on that stage in a month makes you a winner to me!! I'm new to your blog, but am in complete awe 🙂
Seriously you are looking so lean!!! I think you will be great…the excitement and stress of the next couple weeks will do wonders to keep you on track.
The week before my wedding I dropped 5 pounds and I wasn't even trying!
You are going to LOVE IT. YOu really will. I just had my first comp in April and I can't even tell you how proud I was of myself, even though I didn't place. Congratulations on making it this far. I am looking forward to seeing your pics and hearing your stories.
And yes, these comps take so much out of you. You deserve that vacation!