this was last august in california…oldest brother, dad, and little brother holding me up haha…..my brother was about 210 pounds(on the right)…he is now 171 pounds. i know he can pull through this….you just can’t break this family!!! go ahead and try but it won’t happen!! 🙂
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quick post
Hey guys don’t have much time but wanted to get a post in! This morning boxing was great! It left me d.e.a.d. I was going to do legs afterwards, but decided I wouldn’t get a great leg workout today so I did triceps instead. It was a pretty good workout, and legs will be done tomorrow with my trainer to ensure a paralyzing workout 🙂
Finished up with an hour on the treadmill. 45 minutes incline walking, and i mixed up the last 15 minutes with backwards incline walking(i always get weird looks for doing this but its great for the quads!), and some jogging.
Food today has been boring: Egg whites, oats, almond butter, 1/2 banana, 2 apples, 23904823 strawberries(like 70 of them..not kidding i counted.) 2 oikos plain 0%, grapefruit
That has been since I woke up at 530 this morning ha NOT all at one time. I ate a ton of veggies yesterday (2 bags of asparagus) so i wasn’t in the mood this morning, but i will be getting them in after my first final today and then at dinner as well. Egg whites and asparagus has been my go-to dinner lately. 2 full cups of egg whites(which is like 8 egg whites) and a whole bag of asparagus(45 calories total…vegetables are like God’s gift to man..you can eat and eat and eat and the calories just DONT add up haha)
My brother is doing much better. We visited him last night and also had a family meeting with a counselor there. We expressed our concerns and from what he says, he doesn’t ever want to get back into that and doesn’t want to be around those people. I can only pray that he is being sincere and not just telling us what we want to here. I also pray that the effects of the hell-hole he is living in right now has lasting effects so that he will not want to get back into the drugs. This whole experience has shown how close my family really is. We all have pulled together and would do anything for eachother and I am SO grateful to have a family like that. Although this is a terrible time for us, it has been nice to be able to be with everyone so much. My family is the best, even though we are as disfunctional as they come(seriously i can’t even begin to explain the messed up things that have gone on in my family…addictions, violence, addictions, ADDICTIONS..) but we always seem to pull together and get through it all. We are strong people and I know that my brother can fight through this. He seems very optimistic about going to the NA meetings and all of the IOP meetings. Thanks again for everyones prayers and wishes. They are appreciated MORE than i can express here!!!
jump start
For those of you struggling lately, the Fitnessista has a great program starting! Check it out! http://fitnessista.blogspot.com
I am on the treadmill doing my incline walk. No ipod no headphones just my trusty blackberry. 33 minutes to go! Post some entries so I have something to read haha
Better
Thank you EVERYONE for the prayers and warm wishes. I visited my brother again yesterday and he is doing MUCH better.(Also on a lot more medication i believe, but better, regardless.) We brought him some books and games because they literally have nothing to do there. He was in much better spirits and he proved to me just how strong he was. Saturday night when we visited him, he was begging for us to take him out of there and crying and hugging us and holding us. Sunday when we were there, he was upbeat(as much as he could be in that situation) and joking around with us. I said “Ben, you seem like your doing okay in here now…..” and he said “Well, I realized I am going to have to be here, so I might as well make the best of it.” That is so inspiring to me, because I try to live my life in that way. Making the best of any circumstances. We got that from our mom. She is a person who, although she struggles with her own addictions and problems, can make anyone laugh when they are sad or upset. She can bring the best out of ANY situation. For example…a few years ago when my dog died, she had to call my sister to tell her…the conversation went like this…..
Mom: “Hi Rachel, I just wanted to let you know that we had to put Rocky to sleep today….”
Rachel: “Oh my gosh (sobbing)…etc.etc.(you get the point..)”
Mom: “But don’t worry, he left you a million dollars in his will!”
Anyways, I am really proud of my brother and I know he will get through this. I just have to pray that he won’t relapse. I think and hope he is smarter than that.
As far as food, I have actually been eating like my normal self through all this. I didn’t have the desire to eat crappy foods and I handled my stress well. Saturday I didn’t work out because we were at the hospital all day, but yesterday I did get a hike in and some volleyball. Today will be back and abs with an hour of cardio! Sounds delish.
Have a good day!
Hardest thing of my life.
We brought my brother to detox today. He seemed okay about it and we were with him until they admitted him.
Around 5pm we got a call saying that he was crying hysterically and really wanted to see us. Visiting hours were from 6-7pm so we hustled down there. My baby brother(who is 6’2 and 180 pounds) was cradled on the bed crying his eyes out. Begging us to take him out of there. You could hear in his voice and see in his eyes how scared he was. The withdrawals were so terrible. If you know my little brother, he is NOT a drug addict. He is the funniest guy you could imagine, a SMART kid(he has been working by choice since he was 12….he was the manager of a pizza parlor until age 14, then became the desk manager at the JCC and recently has been my dad’s executive assistant). He is not some shady punk who is whacked out of his mind.
I know that he felt like this addiction had taken over him and that is why he asked for the help. It was just so hard seeing him there as he clenched onto our arms and hugged us. All i could do was tell him how strong he was for being there and how much i love him. I am VERY close with my siblings and especially my little brother(i also have an older brother and sister). He is my back bone. We have always been so close and this is just really hard for me. I can’t stop thinking about him and i just hope he isn’t in pain. I hope he is able to sleep tonight and that he will make it through the next few days of detox. I hope that you can all pray with me that he will be okay, I love him so much and want him to be clean and healthy.
Thanks for listening to the rambling, i just really needed to get it out.
excited!!
Hey all! I’m blogging from my phone. I just got my body fat taken again and I am at 17.9%!!! I’m so excited! That is about 5% since I started me clean eating in mid december!! Ill post more later when I get home!
Booty Booty
My butt has been screaming at me since I woke up. I guess the million walking lunges and thousands of squats and jumps we did in the fitness class yesterday really took a toll on my booty. I’m not complaining! I love waking up to sore muscles.
This morning I started my day with a bowl of oats with banana and almond butter mixed in. I had a cup of egg whites too on the side with 2 tangelos.
At the gym, boxing was first up, followed by back and finally 45 minutes on the treadmill. It was a good workout. I came home and literally sat on my ass all day until about 3:45. I decided to go rollerblading around the lakes by my apartment. It was beautiful out and I did it for the mind exercise, NOT the physical aspect. (Although it did that as well on its own.) My head is fully in the game as far as health and fitness, no troubles there lately. I am just missing the ex lately. He has been a part of my life for what seems like forever (going on 7 years…)
I love him and he is my other half. I find every flaw i can in every other guy I date. (I tell myself i just am not into them, but i am starting to think subconciously i just miss him) I don’t really know what to do about it. We still talk, we’re still good friends, but it isn’t the same. I hardly see him and we live separate lives right now. I want to move on, I want to find someone who treats me the way I should be treated. Maybe I just haven’t found that person, although I think I have, and I know its him. But I can’t let that get in the way of other opportunities. I am staying open to that and always ready to meet new people, but after so many tries and so many disappointments, i am starting to lose hope that there really IS someone ELSE out there. Maybe I am crazy, or maybe I just need to be even more patient. I guess it has only been since July/August, so in geologic time that is nothing. (Haha my friend is a geology major and they go by millions of years.) Anyways, I am just having one of those days I will stop now 🙂
I have class tonight and school will be over in just two weeks!! I can’t wait!! Going to the lake tomorrow, so may not be posting until the evening!
Feeling great!
Good morning bloggers! I guess it isn’t really morning anymore, but oh well.
This weekend was great. I hung out with my sister, her boyfriend and my friend Mike on Saturday night. We went to Zipp’s and played shuffleboard, and then went back to their condo and hung out for the night.
Sunday I woke up and made a trip to Whole Foods with my dad. I just got some produce, almond butter, and my thick rolled oats. I like the texture better than just regular rolled oats. After Whole Foods, I hiked Camelback with Jorge and Rick. Jorge and I beat our record time and got to the top in 29 minutes!! Our goal is 25, but it was hard yesterday, so it will take some time. My legs always feel like jello when we get to the top. I am bummed that it is getting so hot outside, soon enough the 100’s will be here and it is just going to be brutal. All the more reason to spend the days at the lake though!!
This morning I met with my trainer and I did shoulders and legs. He had me do a bunch of different shoulder exercises, leg press, and about one million sets of walking lunges. No realy though. Between every shoulder exercise, I had to do 12(6 per side) walking lunges with 27.5 pound dumbbells in each hand. 9 shoulder exercises=9 sets of walking lunges. I better feel that tomorrow! Afterwards, I got on the arc trainer(wanted to do the treadmill but i have a blister on my heel from rollerblading, so trying to let that heal). I was on for about 30 minutes, when SMELL MAN got on the machine next to me. This guy sweats PROFUSELY. As in, it looks like there is mist coming off of his body(i think there actually is….) He is DRENCHD. Puddles form underneath him wherever he is. It is gross, and he smells bad too. So when a friend asked me if I wanted to take a class with her I was all for it! The class was called The Mix. It was really really hard! Most group classes are somewhat challegning but not killer for me, but this one was pretty damn good! I will likely go again next Monday. Something different and I love mixing it up!
Today I am working and then going to the Diamondbacks/Cubs game with my dad. My family is from Chicago, so it is kind of a win/win situation for us. If either team wins, we’re happy! Haha, I know I am being a bad D-Bax fan…oops 🙂
Have a great day!!
lame blogger!
Sorry guys i have been so lame lately! I have just been busy busy!
Yesterday I did Chest and abs at the gym, followed by an hour on the elliptical. I then headed home, showered, and got to work. I worked until about 3pm and then headed to my apartment to meet my friends Rick and Perry to…………..GO ROLLERBLADING! hahah yes i am serious. Rick asked me if i wanted to go and i was for SURE down! And let me just say this…WHYY did rollerblading ever go out of style?! So much fun and a great workout!!
Last night i went out to a show to watch a few bands play. It was a good time, but im tired today. I ended up eating about 2100 calories yesterday. Today I went hiking and plan on going out with my sister, her boyfriend and my friend Mike tonight.
Eats have been good today and I am just enjoying relaxing for the rest of the day!
Late post!
Sorry this is so late! I was lazy this morning before class.
Yesterday at the lake was SOOO much fun!! The weather was gorgeous, the water was glass. I got some great wakeboarding in and had a blasty with the friends. It was me and 7 guys haha but im used to that. I did wipe out a few times on the wakeboard and my neck is feeling it today. I am getting better at jumping though so im happy! I ended up only having 1256 calories by the end of the day (oops!) but after Tuesdays extravaganza, im pretty sure my body was cool with it.
Today I had my boxing class, followed by bi’s and tri’s and finally 45 minutes on the treadmill.
My triceps were sore after finishing the first exercise and i just beat them to death.(I’m so evil) My friend Mike worked out with me and we did his bicep workout that he does…it was good! 10 curls, 12 curls with a bar(in my case the 25 pound bar..not the 45 ha), then 10 hammer curls. That is one set with no rest. You do that 3 times. Then we did cable curls and I started at 6(not sure what weight it is..it just says 6 lol) and did 8 reps at 6, 8 reps at 5, etc. until i had done the rest of that rack. Muscle Fatigue was written all over that workout.
I had one class already and am just hanging out at home until my next class which doesn’t start until 6:30. Remind me not to sign up for night classes anymore because I hate that I still have more class tonight. :-/
Tomorrow I will be working out in the morning, heading to work for a few hours, and then hanging out wtih my friend Rick. He wants to go rollerblading haha and then we’re probably going to jump in the pool because have I mentioned that the weather has been like 95-100 degrees all week?! Yeah summer is here for the Arizonanans.
Today I ended at 2051 calories(goal was 2000).
Tomorrow is an 1800 calorie day. I will start posting my daily ending totals. Just for fun 🙂
Have a good one!