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I need my head to be screwed back on straight.

It’s funny how in my last post I spoke about buckling down and working on what I need to. I had great intentions yesterday and today. Yesterday I stuck to my goals, whereas today, I did not.

I’m not sure exactly what came over me, but I decided that eating a ton of crap was what I should do.

I’m struggling guys, not going to try and hide that. I don’t know what it is honestly. I DO know, that I need to get my head screwed back on straight. At this point I want to crawl into a hole in the ground and bury myself for a while. Hey, at least then I won’t be eating a bunch of crap right?

Okay, so since burying myself in a hole is not an option, moving forward is my only choice.
My best plan of action is to pretend like this is someone else writing this post, and to give them my best advice. So here goes:

“Dear friend, every day is a new day, you may have made poor choices today, but starting tomorrow you can make good choices and have the chance to turn it all around. Don’t give up, just pick yourself up off the ground and get back into gear.”

Easy peasy right? I am just upset today. Figures the same day I am featured on a very popular website, I am struggling. Ah, just need to stop being a baby and get my head in the right place. That’s what it truly comes down to.

Going to go through the motions of putting the pieces back together. Going to wake up tomorrow like any other day and do my workout, going to eat healthy like my body wants me to, and going to try to get my head out of this funk. THAT will be the hardest part.

I am going to sit down and have a talk with the man upstairs tonight. I need some guidance right now. I just don’t seem to be sticking to my healthy eating goals lately the way I should be. Too many cheat DAYS(not meals, DAYS) and they add up. They are pushing me further from my goal. It SCARES me. Because I have gained weight before(after losing it) and vowed that I would never do that again. This is how it all started though, and I am telling you right now that will NOT happen again. I am going to get back to the healthy lifestyle that I truly love(although lately I am a poor example of it.)

Starting over beginning right now. Okay…deep breaths.

Ahh, so much to say and so little time to post! Let me fill you in on what’s been going on.

I took Sunday off from exercise AND dieting and pigged my ass off 🙂 I also compared pictures from this competition and my July 18th competition. Well, I was right when I told my friend George that I thought I had taken a few too many cheats in between last competition and this one. My legs were not as lean this time around. It motivated me to get my ass back in gear!

The reason so many “cheats” were had was because I wasn’t prepared, and I also lost some flame. I had been working so hard and dieting so hard that I just wanted a break. Trying to take a break while preparing for a contest=no-can-do captain. I lived, and learned. I didn’t gain that much weight by any means, but I noticed it in the pictures. I don’t know how much can be taken off before my Sept. 5th show, but there will be no more cheats. I was doing fine the last 2 weeks before the FAP, but it was the 2 weeks that followed the NPC show that really did me in. Moving on…

I believe I am going to be doing the Fitness America Weekend 2009 in Las Vegas in November! A bunch of the girls that I competed with this past weekend are doing it, and I think it will be a fun time. It also will give me the chance to REALLY get my body in shape. This show is 300-400 athletes and some BIG NAMES will be there. I will have about 3 months from the Sept. 5th show to get ready for it. I plan on taking the week off after sept. 5th(off as in, not strict dieting…clean eating stays though for the most part..i’ll still be working out…i love working out..taking a break would be like punishment) Then I will start dieting 10 weeks out. I want to have a nice 6 pack going into this show, as it seems that is what FAP really likes. A great set of abs. I am going to show them just that!!

School started yesterday so I am extra busy. Sorry if I am not blogging as much, but I’m still reading and will try to blog and comment as often as possible. Thanks for sticking with me guys! You are awesome!

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A few girls from our posing group……..me, Michelle(1st place….sweet girl just me her last night), Elena(3rd place..i think she should have won our class!! beautiful girl), Belle, and Laura.

Some of our Posing Group!
Belle, Patty, Kim, Cyndi, Elena, Me, Mara(CUTEST woman ever, seriuosly amazing woman..always happy and positive. love her!), Lisa, and Jill

I didn’t mean to come off so negatively last night in my post. I really did have a wonderful time. I was with 9 girls who i have practiced posing with for the last few months and it was wonderful to see them all get on stage as well. We all had a blast. There were definitely some drawbacks with the show/promoter, but I learned a LOT from this show. I actually feel more confident than I did after the NPC show. It made me realize many things and I have a TON of drive inside of me.

One part of the show that was not typical was that they interviewed each of us on stage. Most of the girls stammered a little bit, and I figured I would too. When it came my turn, I just decided I wanted to have fun with it and when he asked me about my hard rock/ heavy metal music choices, I just decided to be playful and joke around with him. He and the audience got a good laugh and it helped me to open up. My personality is full of sarcasm and that came through on stage with that.

Any and every experience, good or bad, on stage is HELPFUL. More experience with things that don’t go as well as you hope makes you a better and stronger competitor. I am actually very pleased with everything. Now that I have had time to sleep on it, I just realized that this has given me even MORE of a reason to work harder. Not only harder, but smarter. There were only 6 people in my class, but it was a tough class and although I would have placed myself 3rd or 4th, I am happy with my 5th place. It gives me plenty of room for improvement.

I can’t WAIT for OCB in 2 weeks(sept. 5th)

Things I plan to improve for the future(EXCITED to work towards these goals):
Gotta get these abs more defined! 🙂
Lean out a bit more
Get a new suit, get more creative with my outfits
Practice my posing and T-walk even more and really let my personality shine on stage

I don’t plan on stopping any time soon and I am also SO thankful for the wonderful people I have met so far. I met so many new friends last night at the show, and so many inspirational people that keep me going.

The future totally excites me. Thank you all for being supportive with me on this journey of life that i’m LOVING 🙂

Well, 5th place.

Not too happy with it, but at the same time, the judges were all photographers and fashion model people, so they really didn’t know fitness. The promoter was explaining to them what they should look for in each category..umm shouldn’t they know? But its okay. i got more experience being on stage and got some GREAT feedback from my posing coaches. one of my coaches, tiffani bachus, who won 2nd or 3rd place at fitness universe(she was in the runnings with lindsay messina and other top dogs!) told me that her and the other coach had a long talk about me and that they really think i can take this far and do well in it, so she wants to work with me more. So that was awesome!

All in all, wasn’t a fan of this show/organization and it was a VERY small show. Was expecting a lot of people, there were 35 competitors total.(180 at the NPC show i competed in)

Anyways live and learn. Now eating my oats with peanut butter and banana that ive wanted all week! 🙂

:-I’m tanned, meals are packed, bag is packed, and now I just wait 🙂

Thank you everyone for being so patient with me this week and the last few weeks. I have been complainier(just made that word up–copyright 2009?hehe) than usual, but I am finally feeling much better. So thank you all again! You have been awesome, and been there for me and I can’t thank you all enough!

It is storming like CRAZY here right now. The lightning cracks have been so loud. Kind of scary 🙂 But I love big storms.

The foods I am bringing with me tomorrow are:
Egg Whites
Chicken/Avocado
Sweet Potato
Banana
Dates
Asparagus

i brought chocolate and juice last time and i don’t know what really helped/didn’t help. This time, I am just going to eat my normal chicken etc. I may or may not dig into the sweet potato. I haven’t had starches in a week and am afraid they might make me bloat?

Anyone with more knowledge, PLEASE let me know your opinion?
Comp. day is so difficult. You either get it right or you don’t…ah!

There could not have been a better day for this to pop up in my e-mail:

The most powerful tool for prophecy is learning from the past.

Today, before making a decision, recall the last time you were in a similar situation. Think about how it turned out. Do you need to do something different this time around?

These e-mails seriously turn my day around. Love it.