Archive for September 3, 2009

Hmm

So i’m not sure exactly what is going on with my body. I don’t know if it is just me, but I really don’t think it is. My clothes are fitting tighter and I look like I’ve gained a few pounds.

What is weird, is that I’m not eating badly(actually eating pretty well, calories and carbs are more than i’ve been used to lately though), but I feel as though I look like I’m gaining weight by the day. My “carb face” will not disappear, and I’m just pretty confused. Anyone ever had this happen?

The positive side of this is that I’m not freaking out. Normally, I would try to restrict my food like crazy and freak out that I’m getting “fat”, but right now, I understand that my body has been through a lot in the past few months and it is probably just reorganizing itself and getting back into a better working order.

I was overtraining, restricting calories, not sleeping, eating low carbs, its no wonder my body is going nuts. My focus right now is on giving my body what it wants. I am eating about maintenance. Some days a little over and some days a little under, depending on how I feel. Mentally I am in a great place. I am also in a great place, because I have a plan on when my contest prep will start again.

I am going to give myself 8 weeks to lean out. I am trying to maintain my weight that I’m at right now (probably around 133-135?) I would like to be about 120 for the November show, so that works out about right for a 2 pound a week loss, which may or may not happen, but I am being sure not to be super restrictive right now so that mentally I feel awesome going into contest prep. It is definitely hard to see my body less lean than i’ve been used to, but I know that i still am in great shape and still look good. I have never felt so positive about my body while gaining weight lol and it is a really great feeling.

Anyways, anyone that has any experience with this kind of thing after contest prep, let me know. Like I said, i’m not eating donuts and pizza, i’m eating clean with a little cereal here and there and more fruit than I’m used to, as well as more carbs in general(oatmeal, etc.) Will this go away? am i a big freak of nature? Let me know!! Thank you guys!!!

(the hardest part of this for me is the carb face thing! I feel like my face looks so fat. :-()

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