Archive for September 28, 2009

It’s the little things..

So I am starting to work out with a new trainer(still have Dae, too, but I like to change things up and do new things too) This guy trains a ton of girls that compete and for what I get, it’s pretty affordable. Training 6 days a week, posing, boot camps, nutrition plan for $300 a month. Now that I don’t have rent, etc. I can do more things like this :):):) Love it!

So anyways, today was my first day with him. We did hamstrings, back and biceps. The back and bicep workout was really good, hamstrings was a 7 on a scale of 1-10. I like to leave the gym unable to walk, but still definitely got a burn going.

This is what made my day today: We were training and there was 1 other girl he was training as well (who I actually used to workout with at my old gym..SO random haha!it was both of our first days!) and as I was doing one of the back exercises he said “Damn you are really strong!”

Okay so maybe putting on some fat wasn’t all that bad!! It had it’s benefits..because I have definitely put on some muscle. Love it! But i’m also ready to shed the fat and be a lean machine again. I am much happier in my skin when I’m lean.

Anyways that was the highlight of my day!

What was a compliment that you received lately that made your day?


Hey guys! It is WAY past my bed time.

Today I did another bleacher workout with my friend Nicole. It was HARD. Legs were shaking in the middle of it, but we finished!

Here’s the workout:

Repeated 3 times

10 bleachers(Run up, walk down=1)

Single leg step-up jumps=20 per side

Sideways bleacher(left leg lead up, walk down, right leg lead up, walk down)

squat jumps up the bleachers

1 lap around the track


As if that weren’t enough, we finished it up with 300 lunges.

We also met a guy who coaches a ton of girls, and every Saturday they have a boot camp type workout. We might join in next weekend. It looked really cool! They were doing sprints with parachutes and a lot of other random things I have never done. I got excited!!! :):):)

Afterwards I finished moving. 2 hours Wednesday, 4 hours yesterday and 4 hours today of straight cleaning and moving crap up and down two flights of stairs. UGH. Remind me NEVER to move EVER AGAIN 🙂

It is done though, and now all I have to do is unpack my 1.6 million boxes/bags that are overflowing in the extra bedroom 🙂

Gotttta love it!

I have 53 days to lose 10 pounds, think I can do it? Anyone wanna make a bet???  I’m serious…throw me a wager 🙂 I am going to weigh in on Friday(gotta make sure any and all water-bloat is gone so this is fair)

So here’s the deal:

I will weigh in every 2 weeks, so :

October 2nd, October 16th,October 30th,  November 13th and final weigh-in will be the day i leave for Las Vegas which is Wednesday November 18th.

I am going to challenge myself further: 15 pounds.

Can I do it?! Wagers people!! I dare you 🙂

Surprised that nobody offered me any cheese with my WHINE yesterday 🙂

I did exactly what I needed to do today. I drowned in my sorrows(being overdramatic, it wasn’t THAT bad), did NOTHING all day, and thought a lot. I thought about many things, but mostly about pulling myself together and never looking back. It is possible, and it is something I will do. I am sick of letting life’s hiccups bring me down. Sure, they will still have an effect on me, but it isn’t about the problem, it’s about you solve it.

I’m starting fresh tomorrow and I am not going to say that I won’t have any more struggles, because I am sure I will. THe problems that are getting to me today, will still be there tomorrow as well. What I WILL say, is that I am going to focus on handling them in the best way that I can.

That will be my only focus: Handling life in the best way that I possibly can. Everything else will come full circle

In EXERCISE NEWS, since I am sick of leaving you all with downer posts!!

This morning I boxed my heart out, and again my instructor said “It’s amazing what a little energy will do for your power!” Yeah that’s right…I can throw a mean punch these days 🙂 See there IS an upside to all the food I’ve been eating:)

Tomorrow I have a workout down at my sponsor’s gym, and then this weekend will be filled with bleachers, hiking, bi’s and tri’s! Can’t wait 🙂

It doesn’t matter how things turn out in the end, it matters that you tried them in the first place.

Maybe it is the season, or maybe it is just the things going on in my life, but I need change.

I feel like things are just not exciting right now and I am struggling to find my balance.

Granted I have/am changing a few small things about my life right now, and hope to change more. I am 3/4 of the way moved into my dad’s house(Just need to move some clothes and other random items), and I have branched out to another gym and am finding myself getting some AWESOME workouts there.


But that isn’t enough. I am bored with my job, bored with my daily life, and altogether just plain bored. My workouts are the only thing that is exciting me right now. I might sound crazy to some of you, and others will relate, but I get really excited when I’m driving to the gym. I get excited to lift weights and work my body. I absolutely LOVE the pump, the adrenaline, the feeling of being STRONG, I love everything about it. I am working on finding a better relationship with food also. I will admit, I spoke to soon yesterday and had a slip up with the food (EVERY time I come on here saying I am back on track I slip-up. I swear it is like I jinx myself!) I was going 8 days strong, but yesterday turned into a bad day and I will admit: I ate out of pure emotion, and knew I was doing it and didn’t care.

I had a meeting with a modeling agency that didn’t go how I had hoped. I left with mixed feelings. I was excited because I always read about the most successful people being rejected at one point or another, so for a moment I decided to pretend like I was destined to be this super star someday. Then the bad emotions kicked in and the self-doubt and all that mumbo-jumbo. I was bummed, but was going to work through it. Then things got worse.

This involved my little brother. I got an e-mail from one of his friends basically telling me what I had suspected and, yeah, here we go again. I lost it at that point. The day was just NOT a good one for me. I wish I could say that today was much better, but it wasn’t. I have been cutting myself off from friends lately, and leaving my cell phone at home. I just don’t feel like bringing others down with my piss-poor attitude.

I do know that I am very capable of making the changes I want in my life. After all, I need to follow Ghandi’s advice and be the change I want to see in the world.

I am slowly trying to figure out what it is that I actually want though, and that is where I am struggling. I need to do some soul searching the rest of this weekend and find out what it is that I WANT. Here are some things that I already know I want. These are things that I want to live with for the rest of my life. Of course, I am a person of change, so these may change in the future, but for now….

I want to wake up every morning being thankful for the beauty surrounding me.

I want to go throughout my day staying positive and looking on the bright side of things.

I want to judge less, and become even more open to new ideas, new people, and new things.

I want to exercise and work my muscles to their full potential, without over-training.

I want to give my body the rest it needs, when it needs it.

I want to work in an environment of like-minded people that share many of my views on life.

I want to work in a job that doesn’t feel like work. Somewhere that I can be myself and share my ideas.

I want to eat nutritious foods that fuel my active lifestyle. I want my lean muscle mass to glisten in the sun and for the fat to effortlessly slip away because of this healthful lifestyle.

I want to stop focusing on “leaning out” and instead focus on shaping my body into a beautiful sculpture. The fat loss will come full circle if I just work on fueling my body with the nutrients it needs.

I want to learn to listen to my body and what it is craving(I did very well with this last week and found myself much happier.)

I want to remind myself to have faith when it comes to fat loss. If I do the right things for MY body, the fat has nowhere to go but OFF.

I want to surround myself with friends and family that do not judge or hurt others. People who appreciate life and what they are given.(I am sick of my friends complaining about the superficial things in life)

I want to be outdoors and see, hear, and feel what nature has given us. Every mountain, plant, and animal is  a GIFT that we need to embrace. We are visitors on this earth, we do not OWN these things, and we need to learn to appreciate them.


 I am a strong person and I do NOT give up. I may hit rough patches, and you may get sick of reading about my struggles, but you will NEVER see me give up. The only time I would ever give up on something is if it turned out to be something that I truly didn’t want. Although I have some self-esteem issues, at the same time I am very confident. It makes no sense, I know, but it’s true.  My father is a total go-getter. If he wants something, 9 times out of 10 he gets it. Nothing stands in his way and he has taught me to be the same way. I am fearless when it comes to going after opportunities. I know I am young, but I was forced to grow up much quicker than my peers and I have learned a lot. I have learned a lot about the real world, and how people go about it the total wrong way. People, especially in the business world, seek ways to help THEIR OWN business, THEIR OWN desires, etc. They get so wrapped up in building up their own repertoire and usually won’t get very far because they are not focused on the right things. The key to success is to show others how you can help THEM. That is when the opportunities will start to come and you will begin to see your business, dreams and desires growing right before your eyes.  I am definitely no expert and I have MUCH more to learn about life, but that is what is so great about life. There are ALWAYS new things to learn. The smartest man in the world can learn something new from the dumbest man in the world. Why am I writing all of this? I don’t know, really. I got caught up in my thoughts and decided to write them out. I literally have written a novel now, and I’m sure nobody is still reading this, but if you are, glad you stuck with me.

I will round this post out by saying GO AFTER WHAT YOU WANT in life. If you are unhappy with the way things are going, you have to change something. Changes do NOT come to you, YOU create change. Small changes lead to big changes and things will NEVER go as planned, so be ready for it.

I am not counting down until the next competition or the next big event anymore. I am living my life, and I will happen to stop by Las Vegas in November to do a competition. Life is a journey, not a destination.



I get e-mails about different promotional events that are going on in my area. Sometimes it is nice to be able to work a day or two at an event for some extra cash.(I’m poor, I need it :))

The other day I got an e-mail about the Camel Tour. The job would be to promote Camel products. Well, me being my stupid self decided to interpret that as “Camelbak” products and I was stoked on the idea! I replied back with an enthusiastic YES. Only to realize just a few minutes ago that they are talking about the CIGARETTE COMPANY.

Lesson learned. And no worries, I will NOT be promoting cancer sticks! I have never touched a cigarette in my life and my grandma and sister on my dad’s side both died from cigarette-related diseases.

Maybe I should still go out there and then just cause a scene, ranting to everyone about why they SHOULD NOT smoke. That’s kind of like community service right?!  😀


I went to two different Rosh Hashana dinners this past weekend (Jewish New Year) and everytime someone asked for the Challah bread, my sister and I would yell, “Holla!” Yes, we are big nerds haha.

Workouts have been awesome. I took a day off after that crazy crazy bleacher workout. Monday I was back at it. I did back and abs in the morning and went on a 3 mile run in the afternoon between classes.

Today, I had boxing and it totally WIPED.ME.OUT. It didn’t even seem that hard(it was hard, but not any harder than usual) but afterwards I was gumby. I still had a training appointment though and I did shoulders. They, too, got annhilated.

Things have been going REALLY great for me. I got my head back on straight(i think haha) and have been eating well, going on 8 days now.(Seems pathetic, but it was getting hairy for a while!)

Tomorrow I have a Funk workout, and then I am moving out of my apartment!! I have until Saturday, but going to try to get a lot done this week.

Gotta run, just wanted to check in!

My Favorite Breakfast

Thought I would share with you guys my favorite breakfast that I have been having lately.

1/4 cup wheat bran

1/4 cup rolled oats

1/2 banana

1 T Chia Seeds

1T Almond Butter

1/4-1/2 cup egg whites


YUM. It is delicious, awesome blend of protein/fat/carbs and keeps me full.

P.s. Chia seeds are the greatest thing ever. Can’t believe it took me this long to try them. I swear they give me a TON of energy and make me feel AWESOME. 🙂


just popping in to say hi!! 🙂

Having a great weekend with my old roomie. I haven’t seen her in over 2 years and things haven’t changed a bit. Love her!!

Snuck out this morning and ran bleachers with a few girls in my posing group and HOLY COW. My legs haven’t shaken like this in a longggg time. I came home took a cold shower, took a shot of glutamine and popped some glucosamine. Now eating breakfast and feeling FANTASTIC 🙂

I can’t wait to catch up with everyone have a great rest of the weekend!

Early morning!

Ahh it is a fresh, crisp early morning. 🙂 I just wanted to give an update and also say I may not be around for the next few days. My roommate from freshman year in the dorms is visiting me today! I am SO excited, haven’t seen her since she transferred back to Boulder! We were like THIS that year and she is definitely someone I’ll be friends with for life, I’m sure.

My workouts have been AWESOME. I don’t know if I mentioned it, but I have been going to a different gym lately. I go to my old gym on days I have boxing, but the other days I have been trying out a new one. I LOVE it. I totally zone out because I don’t know anybody and my workouts have been KILLER.(biggest reason I wanted to join a new gym. I love my friends, but my workouts and chatting need to be separate and some people don’t get that.) Secondly, this gym is a total body builders gym, the inspiration is everywhere!

On Tuesday, I boxed and then had a workout at my sponsor’s gym.(I think I told you guys about that). Wednesday, the only thing sore was my back(i’m guessing the 100 pull ups had to do with that? ;-)) so I did shoulders, abs and the beloved stepmill. Got a great workout and then had an EXTREMELY productive day. Food was awesome and for whatever reason I had no appetite for dinner, but ate anyways. I was just shocked that I didn’t have an appetite. I was hungry, but for nothing. SO not like me. I guess all the crap I was eating before caught up to me finally 🙂

Anyways, if I don’t catch up this weekend have a great one, but hopefully I can pop in for a post or two!!

Thank you everyone

I received some amazing comments from you guys and they were really helpful to me. I took what everyone said to heart and it made a change in my head. Instead of talking about what I should be doing, I’m simply going to do it. I am making this MUCH more difficult than it needs to be.

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone, but Biggest Loser just started so you know I have to go watch!!! Hehe

Real quick recap of workout today:

Boxing – 1 hour

Workout at sponsor’s gym: 100 reps each of (yes you read that right) pullups, pushups, body weight squats, kettlebell swings, cobras, situps, hamstring curls on swiss ball, dips, jump ropes, and step ups.

And yes, I am dead now haha.

Thanks again everyone, you are all WONDERFUL amazing people. I am always here if YOU ALL ever need ANYTHING 🙂

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