Archive for May 31, 2009

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I decided I am going to do the July 18th NPC show as well as the Aug. 22nd Fitness America show!! That means I am 49 days out!!(see the counter i added?!)

7 weeeks out is what my coach and I agreed on for my lean-out, so technically that would mean today. However, i am having my last hoorah today, so it will start tomorrow. I am sad because it means less fruit for me 🙁 but I am really excited!!! I am doing figure, even though the posing coach thought maybe I should do bikini. i looked at the photos, and i am much more muscular than those girls. The rules say “no muscle definition, little muscle mass” I just feel like i won’t like bikini division. I am not trying to win a beauty pageant. SO, i will do figure. I will post pictures on Monday, and weekly from here on out. you guys can give me your opinion. I may not be quite as big as some of the figure girls, but at the same time, i know i am bigger than most of the bikini girls, so I would rather compete in something I WANT to compete in. As for the August show, we will see.

Ahh i am excited!!!

Trying something out

Hola!! Sorry for being a lame blogger, but I have been running around like crazy. Yesterday I worked after my workout and then hit up the rock climbing gym for an hour. Good stuff!! There was one route that I really seriously pushed myself SO hard. I was almost at the top and literally had to grunt my way to the top. If you have ever rock climbed before, then you know the feeling of literally not being able to move or grab anything because your arms become so dead lol. Good times!!

Afterwards, I napped on the couch and then had to pick up my brother from his N/A meeting. I have good instincts and decided to go a little early to make sure that he was actually there and not getting dropped off(pretending to go in, leaving and coming back in time for us to pick him up) Sure enough I see him walking from a different direction. I yelled at him and told him to find his own ride home. Then I felt bad and went back and picked him up. I told him how much it hurts me when hes lying to me and that I will literally do ANYTHING for him as long as he is honest with me. He got kind of teary eyed and you could tell he was struggling. We decided to go hang out at my sister’s place for the night. We had fun and it ended up being an okay night.

So your probably wondering what I am trying out?! Well a woman that leads our posing group, who I might add has an UNBELIEVABLE body, was telling us that she cuts every one of her meals in half. This means she eats 10 times a day, every hour and a half. So i decided I am going to try that today and see what it is like. Seems very time consuming, but i like the idea of eating all day haha. Glutton?!?! Speaking of glutton, has anyone ever watched the Glutton Bowl. It is an event that people from all over the world go to and there are different food categories and its basically a bunch of massive eating contests. It was on the Reality TV channel yesterday. I watched last year’s too. Don’t judge!! Hahaha.

Hope everyone has a great Saturday, not sure what my plans are yet!
Food today so far was 1 cup of egg whites and 195g of watermelon. Waiting another hour and then going to eat my oats with almond butter and banannerrrr.

Great success

I don’t have time for a real post right now, but just wanted to let you all know i am feeling MUCH better. Not sure what was up for those few days but i am glad that it is gone!!!

Yesterday i had boxing and then did biceps and triceps. NO CARDIO. 🙂 I went to the lake yesterday afternoon and had an awesome time. The great success is that I was able to wakeboard without halfway paralyzing myself!! Haha. I also tried surfing behind the boat…kinda got it but its hard. You basically get in really close to the boat and let the wake push you and eventually you throw the rope in the boat and don’t even need it. I lasted about 5 seconds without the rope. Guess i will have to go back to the lake and try again :):):)

Glad its friday. I woke up really early this morning so I went to the gym and did abs and an hour on the treadmill before my training session with Dae. He said from now on I HAVE to wear a sports bra to work out in. This way I can keep an eye on my muscles as I work them. (No he was not just saying that to get me in a sports bra, he’s gay.) It helps me keep my abs in too because i know that everyone can see them haha. He said my back is looking good, so that was some good positive reinforcement!! Back workout with him today was TOUGH but felt great. Eats have been good today as well. Will recap those later on.

Wednesday Overview

i didn’t go get a grapefruit. I decided i don’t need it lol. I am going to make myself be positive. Positivity attracts more positivity; Negativity attracts more negativity. Today really wasn’t a bad day at all. I did 20 minutes of elliptical when I got to the gym and then boot camp with my trainer today because he needed to lifeguard since the lifeguards didn’t show up and he is the aquatics director. This meant a lot of: pushups, running around the pool, squats, curls, lat raises, upright rows, scissor kicks, etc. It was hot outside(even at 8am) and I worked up a terrific sweat. After a much needed half hour break, I finished up with 30 min. on the elliptical. I wanted to run or incline walk, but did I mention, my ASS IS SO SORE. Yesterday’s leg workout was brutal. My friend Rick joined me in the second half of the workout and his ass was toast today too. I then went to the lake and again didn’t get to wakeboard because after we decided to hang out for a few hours in the sun, as soon as we decided it was wakeboarding time, a STORM rolled in. Good thing I am going to the lake again tomorrow or I would have been pissed haha. But I like storms at the lake they are fun!! It was like a damn ocean out there on the water, but we got off the water before it got bad. I rode home with the boys and was kind of stranded at my friend Joe’s house since I got picked up earlier, so my friend Taylor came and picked me up. She has been my best friend since 3rd grade and lately we don’t see each other that much, but when we do hang out, all my troubles go away. Love that girl!

 

The plan for the rest of the night is to sit on the couch, relax, sip my water like it’s a martini(shitttt maybe I’ll even put it in a wine glass!), watch tv, do some crossword puzzles(I am honestly surprised this is the first time I have mentioned crossword puzzles on here…ummm I am addicted to them. Seriously though….it is my 2nd biggest habit to working out. Wow I am one pathetic loser!(what movie people?!?!?!))

 

Anyways..enough rambling..this girl needs a SHOWA. Lake water does not smell as good as it tastes. Hahahaha.

 

Here is today’s overview:

 

   

WEDNESDAY

MEAL 1

(Pre-Workout)

  • 1/4C ROLLED OATS
  • 1 TB AB
  • 89G BANANA
  • 1C EGG WHITES
  • 1 apple

MEAL 2

(Post-Workout)

  • 2 grapefruit
  • 2 apple
  • 1 banana
  • 1 TB AB
  • 1c spinach
  • 1c egg whites
  • 205g sweet potato

MEAL 3

  • 1 grapefruit
  • zucchini

MEAL 4

  • 6 oz. turkey

MEAL 5

  • 1c spinach
  • 1c egg whites
  • 1 peach
  • 1 banana
  • 1TB AB

MEAL 6

  • 110g Sweet potato
  • 1/2 c egg whites

MEAL 7

  • 1 banana

TRAINING

 

CARDIO

  • Bootcamp with my trainer
  • 50 min. elliptical

TOTAL CALORIES IN

2220

TOTAL CALORIES OUT(through exercise)

-750(est.)

 

Overtraining?

So I am not sure if i am overtraining or not. But the thought crossed my mind like an epiphony this morning. Maybe THAT is why im in such a bad mood the past few days. So i looked up the symptoms:

Washed-out feeling, tired, drained, lack of energy –CHECK
Mild leg soreness, general aches and pains –CHECK
Pain in muscles and joints
Sudden drop in performance
Insomnia –It comes and goes but not really i guess….
Headaches
Decreased immunity (increased number of colds, and sore throats)
Decrease in training capacity / intensity
Moodiness and irritability check!!!!
Depression check!!!(not depressed but ive been sad/annoyed)
Loss of enthusiasm for the sport check!!!
Decreased appetite last week i had no appetitie…this week i have a HUGE appetitite….
Increased incidence of injuries. not yet…..hopefully not at alll
A compulsive need to exercise ive always had this…..lol

So overall, i am not sure if i am overtraining…i have some of the symptoms, but who knows. I am stressed on top of it so i think it is a combination of stress, lack of TOM(where the f*&^ are you buddy?), and overtraining.

Anyone overtrained before? I have done it before but wasn’t really as aware until after i had recovered from it so i don’t really remember the symptoms exactly…..i don’t know..maybe i will try to take it easy the next few days.

All i know is that i want a grapefruit right now so i am goign to the store to buy one. Haha don’t judge…at least its not a donut!!!

TUESDAY OVERVIEW

 

gotta love that my ex just texted me saying he loves me. I really love these mind games. No better way to top off a frustrating day than with more frustration. Oh I am going to have a great workout in the morning J I am going to the lake too so I KNOW I’ll be in a happy place and not such a downer. haha.

   

TUESDAY

MEAL 1

(Pre-Workout)

  • ¼C Rolled oats
  • ½ tbsp AB
  • 48g banana
  • 1c egg whites
  • 1 apple

MEAL 2 and 3

(Post-Workout)

  • 221g sweet potato
  • 1 c egg whites
  • 3 oz. turkey
  • 2 grapefruit
  • 2 apples
  • Red bell peppers
  • 16 strawberries
   

MEAL 4

  • 20 almonds
  • 6 oz. turkey
  • Red bell peppers

MEAL 5

  • 3 apples
  • 1 grapefruit
  • 12 strawberries
  • 1c. egg whites

MEAL 6

  • 1 banana w/ 1TB AB

MEAL 7

 

TRAINING

  • Legs(4 sets of each)
  • Squats-95 lbs
  • Single Leg Leg Press-90-110 lbs
  • Leg Extensions-70 lbs
  • Walking lunges-30 lb DB’s
  • Smith Machine hack squats-40-70 lbs
  • Lying ham curls-50 lbs with 2 second hold at the top of each rep
  • Hack squat machine-45 lb plates
  • Split squats-15 lb DB’s

CARDIO

  • 30 minutes elliptical
  • Boxing-1 hour
  • Plan on rock climbing this evening

TOTAL CALORIES IN

2373

TOTAL CALORIES OUT(through exercise)

-1300(approx.)

Much better

Ahhh..im feeling much better today. I am still a little bugged but I am not sure about what. I think that I might have figured something out today: I often ask myself…”Why do I work out so much? What is all this for? Why am I so obsessed and feel the need to work out so much and so hard all the time?” And I think I might have figured it out. Of course I LOVE being healthy and fit, but I also think that I am trying to fill a void. I think that the fact that I feel very lonely sometimes(I have so many great friends and a good family don’t get me wrong!!) But I have been single now since July without anything even semi-seirous. Sure I have dated around a little bit, but I haven’t met anyone that I really like. I feel like sometimes the only thing I have going for me is the ability to workout for countless hours in a day. It is kind of upsetting, but I am glad I realized it. I think that I will stay very active for my whole life, but I think that once I find myself in a happy relationship, maybe some of the pressure will be taken off of me. That maybe I will have another purpose other than to just manipulate my body into looking how I want it to. Blah….why am I such a debbie downer the past few days??!?! Seriously sorry guys!!! I don’t usually get like this and I am not sure what it is. No more negative talk from me!! I should mention that I have been hanging out with my ex’s very good friend lately. He is a really nice guy, he comes and works out with me a lot, hes funny, all around cool guy. He is very shy, though, when it comes to talking about emotions or feelings and me being the outgoing person I am, I need a guy who can keep up with me. I need someone who can keep me on my toes, and take charge with me. I like to be “controlled”(not in a demeaning or bad way, just in a “this is my big man who takes care of me” kind of way.) I will see how it goes, either way we are good friends and hang out a lot, but I am not sure that I could see myself dating him or anything.

By the way, when I was in English 101, my teacher pulled me aside one day and told me that my writing was “all over the place” and just a bunch of “ramblings that are out of order and don’t make sense” If you ever wondered why when you read through my posts you get lost or have no idea why or where I got my next topic from, well, nobody does. It is the 8th wonder of the world. This is why I engage in math-related jobs like accounting, NOT writing haha.

 

Boxing was fun this morning and I got a long, hard leg workout in afterwards. Finished up with 30 minutes on the elliptical. I will be headed to work shortly and then I am going to go rock climbing this evening.     Here are my eats so far…

   

TUESDAY

MEAL 1

(Pre-Workout)

  • ¼C Rolled oats
  • ½ tbsp AB
  • 48g banana
  • 1c egg whites
  • 1 apple

MEAL 2 and 3

(Post-Workout)

  • 221g sweet potato
  • 1 c egg whites
  • 3 oz. turkey
  • 2 grapefruit
  • 2 apples
  • Red bell peppers
  • 16 strawberries
   

MEAL 4

 

MEAL 5

 

MEAL 6

 

MEAL 7

 

TRAINING

  • Legs(4 sets of each)
  • Squats-95 lbs
  • Single Leg Leg Press-90-110 lbs
  • Leg Extensions-70 lbs
  • Walking lunges-30 lb DB’s
  • Smith Machine hack squats-40-70 lbs
  • Lying ham curls-50 lbs with 2 second hold at the top of each rep
  • Hack squat machine-45 lb plates
  • Split squats-15 lb DB’s

CARDIO

  • 30 minutes elliptical
  • Boxing-1 hour
  • Plan on rock climbing this evening

TOTAL CALORIES IN

 

TOTAL CALORIES OUT(through exercise)

 

 

 

Memorial Day!

Blah…I have had a really bad day. Well, not terrible, but just blah. That is the best way to describe it. The day started out pretty good….I woke up at 6:30…ate my oats, AB ½ banana with 1 cup of egg whites on the side and headed off to the gym. My plan to channel my anger and sadness regarding my brother into my workout, worked Haha. I nailed my shoulders pretty good and then hit up the treadmill for an hour to do my incline walking. Sweat-a-thon. I was leaving and I ran into Noel, one of the trainers at my gym. He used to be almost professional in boxing, and really knows his stuff. He is from another country and is a very goofy man, and you would never know he is such an amazing athlete if you didn’t know his background. He told me to go grab some boxing gloves. I was all for it!! He showed me some better techniques/form and then had me doing some combos. There was a lot of punching and ducking going on and it was getting tiring and confusing. I forgot to duck one of the times and I got punched in the face. Hahah it was hilarious if I may say so myself. It gave me a fat lip for a few minutes, but it was all in good fun. It was an excellent end to my workout. Except it didn’t end there. My friends texted me to say that they were going to the rock climbing gym, so of course, I was in!! We climbed for about an hour and a half. It was I.N.T.E.N.S.E. I am getting pretty good at climbing though which is really cool! It is such a FUN workout, I’m telling you all, TRY IT. If you hate exercise, this is something you will most likely love.(Unless your afraid of heights, then maybe not so much lol) But I climbed a 5.10- today which is the hardest climb I have ever done!!! The climbs in this gym range from 5.4-5.13(I think?) I usually climb about 5.8 or 5.9’s. + means a little harder and – means a little easier. So a 5.10- is a little harder than a 5.9 but not as hard as a 5.10. Anywayssss….this is where I got all depressed. My friends were going to barbecue at my ex’s place. My ex and his g/f’s place I should add. Naturally, they didn’t invite me, and I am glad. I would have gone and I would have been annoyed the whole time. I am also frustrated because the other night I was talking to one of my ex’s best friends. He was basically telling me that he likes me and that he had mentioned that to my ex and that my ex was kind of like taken aback and really not comfortable with it. Of course I was glad to hear that and now I am back to thinking about him. But anyways, that wasn’t really why I got upset. I just felt very lonely today. I felt like all my friends were having a good memorial day and I was just hanging at home. Boyfriend-less, and with all the shit going on with my brother AND my mom, I was bummed.

(My mom has her issues and further pissed me off and showed me just how far gone SHE is when I texted her to let her know that my brother had tested positive for pot, cocaine and opiates….her response???”Tell them to drug test your dad.”) REALLY MOM?! She should be focused on my brother and ONLY my brother..not her anger towards my dad. So frustrating.

 

I guess I feel better now that I wrote it out though, and I am not that upset, just frustrated in general. It is a weird day. I took it out on Ben and Jerrys, had half of the pint. 500 worthless calories. So dumb but I don’t care to be honest, because I still was in a good range calorie-wise. The rest of my eats today were healthy. And I am sure I burned a shit ton of calories today. I really decided to emotionally eat haha I actually sat there and thought “im eating ice cream and I dare anyone to try and stop me.”

 

The rest of my eats today were: egg whites, sweet potato, grapefruits, apples, baby carrots, almond butter, strawberrys, banana, oats, and 3 saltine crackers because my stomach was hurting from the ice cream lol. Go figure. I don’t have my little chart do-dad and I am too lazy to make it right now, but it will be back tomorrow!!

Calorie burn for the day: 1537

 

Sorry for the ULTRA LONG post. lol

here we go again

So my brother has been acting weird lately and today he called me from a weird number complaining about my dad not giving him money or something…turns out the weird number was his dealers house. Long story short my dad took him for a drug test and he tested positive for pot,cocaine and opiates. He is denying using and not wanting help. My dad is going to put himin an inpatient treatment center for 21 days. I am so pissed off at my brother. He has been telling lie after lie and bullshitting all of us and its a slap in the face. At this point I don’t know what to do. So angry. Can’t wait to hit the gym in the morning. Shoulders? Prepare to die.

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